hi david. hi

hey yall or rather me! because it seems the only person that reads these posts is myself. actually, i know i am the only one that reads my posts because google kindly lets me know. go fuck yourself google. well its been like 2 and half years since my last post. so what has happened, you ask? well i am a fifth year. "oh no david you still doing fucking pharmacy" yes "but think of all the recognition and money youll get" yah what about true happiness? well i think thats the meaning of life. what i mean is is that there isnt anything in the world that tells us what life really means. but you know throws the question out there or who. it's us. so in essence, it doesnt take a lifetime to realize what it means because it's like flipping a switch, like black or white, saying yes or no...it means we can choose to be happy. think about it. you cant control what anything happens AROUND you but you definitely can control yourself and if you can control yourself in a certain way then it can also control the way you feel and think. i like to think of this quote on a daily basis, "if you dont like something, change it. if you cant change it, change your attitude. dont complain." my whole life, ive been raised to think that my environment could never change, that my life sits in stagnant water, but enduring pharmacy school ironically capitulated my perception. in a place, where theres so much narrow thinking and less room for creativity, i found endless hope. sadly, the only thing holding me back were my loans. but i cant blame anyone, not even myself. it's hard but i cant be negative towards myself because i know one day i will be where i want to be. at this moment and time i may not be but i know that i am working on getting to my haven. thats the fire the burns inside of me. well thats all i have to say about my life so far. oh, i almost forgot. I dating a beautiful girl. probably the best thing about my life. she makes a better person. i try to work myself to attract her best attributes and i hope she does the vice versa. thats where im at in my life, dont know when ill be back again. have empathy.

question

yah so how do i get followers to follow my magnificent blog? i want to be more popular than i am now, which is overwhelmingly fantastic. yah if no one looks at this then no one can answer it. sad. well good thing i am an egotistical fuck.

its late again

so an update on my final. well i dont think i got a 98% to get the A but i ended up with an A minus but i can hope.

"people become religious certain times, before taking a test and..." i forget the other time.

anyways, i am up again. yet, i have 2 finals tomorrow: drama and otc.
now people like my friends think like you, whoever reads this, and says youre acting?!??! and of course, because i am so talented in acting, i say yes because i look and act like brad pitt. and once they are easily convinced that i am a terrific actor, they ask me what the hell is otc. well the class is sparingly called Introduction to Pharmaceutical Care: Nonprescription Drugs & Drug Information. yah i just copied and pasted it. the class is hell. they expect us to learn or in every students case to memorize all these details about the drugs, side effects, yada yada yada. and you might say "well david, you signed up for pharmacy school" and i say "yah well fuck you!"
okay lets talk about something else. like summer

oooo yess summer. i love summer especially the movie 500 days of summer. what a beautiful, honest, hopeful movie. i wish my summer will entail great activities. i hope to go to A national park where i can just hike and look at the scenic views, if not, ill just look at my screen saver and play nature noises. i also like summer because i get to sleep innnnn. that is if i dont get this job. i am hoping i do well for my job interview wednesday because i need it and i have been working at the same place for 4 years. seriously. i love it however. its way too laid back. i dont think i can conform to the rigid corporation of a hospital pharmacy. but just think david, all that money for working hours on hours end.

and summer will also include lots of friend time and gf time haha. she loves me and i love her. good. and i am sure my friends are going to be smoking a lot of herb this summer. i have given it up however.

i feel like grass can make people so lazy. but i guess thats the beauty of it. it just gives you the mindset of a high school dropout that says "i dont give a fuck" to any little obstacle he or she had to face in their life. sometimes i just want to say that and walk it out. you know, talk the talk then walk the walk. but i have a future to forward to with many great things to experience. like mescaline.

actually i want this in life. to finish school and get a great job at a hospital pharmacy and help people. by that time ill be 24. i want to marry anywhere before 30. and have children before 30. so i hope, because nothing in life turns out the way you want, i can marry by 27 then have children at 29 or 30. i am hoping a girl. i know the guys are like "wtf david you gotta have a boy to raise up to be like eli manning or tiger woods" tiger woods is my hero btw. but for me, id like to have a girl because i know theyll change me as a daddy. awww. thats some deep shit. then my life goes on, yada yada yada, i get a nice big retirement and go on a world cruise for at least 6 months and my kids better be successful and good people cause that would be awful to have children who turned out those dropouts that i mentioned above because it would be my fault. true? i wish not.

i got to think of a ending phrase. how about: "if you read this far, i am surprised. very."

wow its late

yah its about 4 am here in the midwest and i have to get up early to study.....sigh. i am more of a night owl type of person. i hate it when my mom tries to wake me up. its ugly. just think of will ferrell and his antics. haha what a man.

yah so i have to study for tomorrow. organic chemistry to be exact. i am learning how neurotransmitters are taken up in the body. its pretty interesting. and your guessing, "david, why are you studying organic chemistry?". well its because i decided poorly on what to do with my life and choose to be a pharmacist. i thought "hey, i like science and helping people and the fatty check that ill get after i graduate" then after 2 brutal initial years of pharmacy school, i am now "wtf david?!" and i say this because its just a stressful time. literally, all i do is study or work. but of course, i hang out with the friends and gf but they seem less important in my life right now. i still have 4 more years of school. 4!!!! the hell. sigh.

but my dad put it this way, "no one pays you that much just because it's easy". the hell, i wish it was. but he's right. and to think i wanted to become a doctor HAHA.

so im new to blogging. i use to blog as an amateur on Xanga. man i remember all the asian kids had one then facebook took over.

thats another thing. facebook really just takes up a lot of my time. its like i dont have self-control for it. im bored = fb. i need a break from studying = fb stalk anyone (sad but i laugh). etc.

well i am tired. but as someone put it (if i can remember it well): "I'm a morning person because i go to sleep in the morning" hehehe hahaha hohoho.

i am going to destroy my final. i forsee an A in the class. wish i could have said the same for physiology.